ive come to realise that friendship really plays an important role in my life.
same as for family too.
but friendship,
in a way is different from family.
i guess all of us will understand that.
somehow,
ive come to realise also that im beginning to treasure and cherish some of the friendships around me.
some friends are getting more and more important to me.
and no doubt they play a big role in my world.
and some friends are meant to be kept,
but other friends, are better of as just friends.
but of cause,
if you ask me whether would i develop a true friendship with people like samuel tan than i would flatly say NO.
same for the mr siao langs that are staying near my house.
and i think friends influences my feelings alot more than family members do.
probably because family is more stable in the sense that they do not change.
family will always be family,
there is no denying.
and i love my family.
of cause,
my friends too.
but as much as i hate to say,
some friends come and go,
some friends remain.
i must be true to myself,
and true to the friends around me.
so when we are true to each other,
i believe this friendship will be able to move on.
honesty is probably the foundation for alot of things,
including friendship.
isnt it so?
i know sometimes i contradict myself every now and then,
but thats okay.
this is the shanggeok that you guys know me as.
rah~
other than i know that im quite pretty and clever and cute and ...
HAHA joking.
i believe that when you help people,
you'll feel good about helping people.
but of cause,
sometimes,
i must learn to say no at the right time too~
its okay to help,
but its not okay to help to the extent that you need to compromise on your values greatly.
small compromises are okay,
big ones,
then i'll have to consider.
i love the feeling of being there for other people,
this shows that people trust me to be there for them,
and i should not let their trust down.
and i also love the feeling of having people there for me.
i wouldnt say im feeling very happy right now,
and after sitting at the alighting point alone for quite some time after yiqian left,
dont ask me why i sat there alone,
i just did.
anyways,
looking at the passerbys,
ive straightened out some of my thinkings and mindset.
but i felt so alone at that moment.
i just dont feel like growing at.
remaining at 18 is enough for me.
i dont wish to grow up and go into the working world,
to face the harsh reality that there is no one for you to count on at work,
everyone are just co-workers.
not exactly friends.
co-workers that you can get along with better,
and co-workers that you cant get along with.
because when there are conflicts of interest,
people will do whatever it takes to make you fall.
thats so cruel.
i dont know if its true,
but at least i trust my mother.
this is what she told me.
maybe its quite true.
its alrdy starting to get visible.
remember last sem?
this irritating asshole tried to pull us down?
but,
we are still studying.
so things are not so serious.
but what if we step out into the society?
i dont know,
i better deal with things that are more urgent now.
but i just want to say,
i really feel old~
rah.
the age is coming on.
the fine lines appearing on my face.
am i thinking too much? =x
maybe i need packages.
ahaa.
and,
my feelings have been on a roller coaster ride recently.
probably because im so fed up with myself that i cant seem to find jobs.
and most of the interviews that ive went turned out to be either scam-like jobs or jobs with really bad offers.
we've went to a total of 4 to 5 job agencies,
and none has a job for us.
all they can say are
'' we will keep a lookout for suitable jobs for you. if there are suitable jobs for you we will contact you immediately.''
contact your head ah, just go and die la~
very angry. zz inefficient. rah~
and in addition,
some of the places are really ulu ulu,
so when deciding how to get to our destination,
we have different views and opinions,
and say hi to friction.
but im sorry qian,
cause im so emo everytime,
we always end up being emoz at each other.
dui bu qi~
come what may,
we will still be hpy and lty.
at least thats what i feel.
i dont know what sparked off me to write this kind of entry,
maybe im just being random,
or maybe there is this auntie friend who sent me a weird msg,
who scared me,
and inspired so many insights and views that i have.
and auntie,
if you like,
then go ahead,
aknowledge your feelings
follow your heart.
youve got nothing to lose anyway.
thats just my opinion.
:)
with friends like them,
who still needs a boyfriend?
okay, i still need.
=x
and just another random thing.
my brother is so lame.
he went to watch MVP qing ren on you tube -.-
what the hell.
okay anyways,
yup.
thats it.
tomorrow will be a beautiful day.
right?
bye~